Blog Changes

So, I have so far done daily blog posts. But I'm thinking that I might change that and do weekly posts instead. I was thinking that this way, I won't be rushing to try and get a post up and I can actually take my time and write better quality stuff. I can actually take the time to make my writing good instead of rushing to write something just to make sure a post is up. I will continue to write daily but I just won't be posting it all. I would rather have quality over quantity. But I will continue to practice. The only way to get better is to practice, practice, practice. :)

Fulfilled

Why is nothing ever good enough?
I'm never satisfied
Even when I get what want
No matter how hard you tried

Unrealistic expectations
Emotionally charged
Don't know if I'm strong enough
I'm so terribly scarred

But I will keep on trying
I want to understand
I can't expect you to read minds
You do all that you can

I will try to see it differently
Look at it from your perspective
Things don't always go as planned
But sometimes better than expected

I'll try to go with the flow
And let things happen as they will
I'll try not to get so worked up
Because when I'm with you I'm fulfilled

Crazy For You

How do you do it?
I can hardly believe
With just a few simple words
You set me at ease

My mind will be racing
I start feeling bad
But you calm me down
Without getting mad

I can't see how you love me
But I know this much is true
I may be crazy
But I'm crazy for you

Temporary

I know you're tired love
But you have to keep going
It's ok, take a rest
But don't stop

Don't give up
Don't stay down
You can make it
You can do it

Do you feel like crying?
Let it all out
But wipe those tears
When you're done

Do you feel like breaking?
It's ok to feel fragile
Pick up the pieces
And move on

Nothing lasts forever love
Just try to enjoy it
Not up for it?
Tomorrow is another day

I know it's so cliché love
But they are clichés for a reason
Don't discredit them
Especially if they help

Sadness is a part of life
And so is anger
Want to scream?
Shove your face in a pillow and scream

Run at top speed
Let out that energy
Play a song
And sing it as loud as you can

It's ok to have emotions
You can't always be happy
Just don't let them control you
Let your emotions be as they are :

Temporary

Don't let a temporary feeling cause permanent damage

Take Me Away

I want to know 
Where the elephants roam
To see where the lions sleep
I want to feel 
The Burmudan sand under my feet
And hear the mockingbird sing
Take me away 
To where I can play
Along with the music on the streets
The Eiffel Tower standing tall
Niagra Falls running down
The Grandest Canyon of them all
The hidden temples underground

Don't Listen To Them

Baby let it shine
Don't waste your time
Listening to people
Who just criticize 

Just let it go
You've got to know
That light inside you
I see it glow

Sweetheart you've got this
The time is yours
Don't you dare give up
Don't wait anymore

Time Management

So, I have the worst tendency of taking too many things on at one time. I lose focus, life happens and then things get dropped, postponed,etc. I need to learn to just take things one step at a time and make it a dedication, then once one thing is accomplished or becomes habit/ second-nature, take on the next thing. 

I also need to be better about communicating these things to others, especially when it affects them. I need to learn to say no when necessary and then stick  to commitments when I make them. I am an organized person as far as my possessions but I am scatter brained when it comes to my thoughts. I need to learn better time management.

And I need to learn to stay focused. I get all these ideas and I want to do everything at once. Or I get an idea while working on my first idea and then I start the new one and forget about the old one. I'm learning. I'm getting slightly better than I have been in the past but I still get unrealistic and a little to gung-ho about all these different ideas. And I wonder why I get so anxious :)

I'm trying to learn to be more present and patient and focused and not so scatter brained and easily distracted. I have kept up with this blog so far, which I am pretty proud of. I think this is the longest I've stayed consistent with daily writing. I'm going to keep going. Keep trying, keep pushing :) Don't give up!

If I Had a Million Dollars...

What would I do if I won a million dollars? I would get a good car, a house, take care of my family, make sure I have enough for retirement, travel, and then donate the rest. It would make life a little easier. I would consider quitting my job to dedicate my time to write my novel. But I probably would go back to work after the novel is written. And I would buy a music studio for young artists to come together and develop their talents. That would all be a dream come true. 
These are still my goals even without winning any kind of lottery. Though the lottery would be faster and easier, which I guess is why so many people take that risk. And sometimes it pays off. 
What would you do with a million dollars? 

New Car

I can't wait until I get a new car. I have the worst luck with cars. Part of it has to do with the fact that I've only had beater cars. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for them and they got the job done while I had them but I want a somewhat nicer car. 

The only problem is that I'm terrible with money. I have nothing saved as of yet because I never put my extra money aside. I always end up spending it somehow. But I'm trying to get better. I'm trying to be more diligent about it and only buy what I really need, pinch pennies where I can, and save as much as possible. I still spend a little bit of money that I probably shouldn't but it's way less so far.  I just have to keep it up. 

I have to stay focused and keep at it. I can do this. I need to. It's hard getting to and from work without a car and my ride situation is straining for all involved. But I'm going to keep at it and hopefully soon I can get my own car, one that's not a beater that can last me more than 2 years. 

Procrastinating

I swear I am such a procrastinator all the time. If I don't get it done at the last minute, I don't get it done at all most times. Oh well, better than not getting it done I suppose. I'm still working on time management and not procrastinating as much. I'll get the hang of it eventually. :P 

A Little Goes A Long Way

It doesn't take a lot
To make someone's day
Show them what you've got
A little goes a long way

Sometimes just a smile
Can help make the world brighter
Help for a little while
And make the load lighter

Spread around the kindness
Be what you wish to see
Don't let yourself be mindless
The best is yet to be

So give a friendly greeting
Ask someone "How's your day?"
There's so many people worth meeting
And a little can go a long way

Not Easy

They say that the good things in life are never easy. Simple maybe, but not always easy. And they say that good things come to those who wait. Well, I will say that I am not the most patient person when it comes to getting what I want. In fact, I have almost no patience at all. But I am learning. If this life has taught me anything is that consistency and diligence will help to win the day in the end. 

And also, when it comes to other people, you have to be even more patient with them, because they come with their own thoughts and emotions. It helps to try to see things from their perspective. At least to try to gain some understanding. And, to be fair, be open with them, so that they might understand you. 

It's hard. They never said it would be easy, but it is worth it. 

Your Birthday

You would be 22 today
If you hadn't gone away
We would be celebrating
But instead we live in pain

I would have had a drink with you
A toast to honor your day
But I drink in silence now
As I contemplate and pray

You will stay forever young
Within our minds and hearts
I hope one day we'll be together
After this aching time apart

We'll never get to see you older
Buy a house, or have a child
You'll never be old and wise now
As you lived so young and wild

I hope that you are happy now
I hope that you're okay
I'll be missing you forever brother
Especially on your birthday

My World

My world is minuscule 
Compared to the size of the earth
But my world means everything to me
My world has so much worth

My circle has become smaller
The older that I've gotten
The more I've learned, the less I know
The more that I've forgotten

But I love my world so dearly
It brings me so much happiness
I can't believe that I'm so lucky
I deserve so much less

Original

I want to be original
Don't want to be like anyone
But I am not original
When I see that it's all been done

Can't try too hard, can't be the best
I can't compete with all the rest
If only I could make it new
There's nothing left so what's the use

I am different from everyone
I can make something unique
We are all the same it seems
But no one out there is quite like me

I am an original
I am not like anyone
It may all have been done
But it's my turn to have the fun